My life and my piercing..?

Yet again i haven't been blogging.. A lot of things has been going on in my life, working on Lolland and having all of your social life back at home. It's been pretty difficult for me and at the same time a life lesson.
Even just thinking about all of the things i have experienced can bring me to tears, that's how overwhelming it has been..  The thing is, when you have a lot of people you care about at home and you are about 160 km away, it is hard not feeling like you miss a lot. And i would lie if i said that there hasn't been days where i didn't want to be here. It's been an emotional roller coaster and it is all done in about a week. Next Wednesday is the day where i pack up all of my stuff down here and head home for good.

Then you might ask, well what are you going to do at home? Get a job? Start applying for whatever i'd like to study?.. The answer is: I don't know. Simple as that. I'll probably start applying for a job, any job that i can get really. I'm not being picky right now, i just need some money.. Hopefully i will be able to get some more free time and be able to see all of my friends when ever i want. 

One thing i know for sure is going to happen when i get home is, that i will join a gym.  I need something to spend my time on, instead of just lying around, doing nothing while trying to get a job. I've already set somewhat of a goal. I want to get down to the weight i had a couple of years ago. It's not because i think i'm fat - i know that i am not. But over the last two years, I've gained 6 kilos. Some of it has been 'good weight' - the kind of weight that has given me some curves, but i would like to tighten everything up and drop around 4 kilos if i can. The thing is, i also want to build some muscles and then you can't really drop kilos, because muscles weighs more than fat. I know that i am not even above 60 kilos right now, but i want to get down to 55-54 kilos. Just because i loved how i looked when i weight that. I still love my body, but i would love it a little more, if it weight a little less. So when i'm done here, i'm gonna buy some small weights and maybe some protein powder to get my workout started. The weights is for workouts at home for the days i want to work out, but not go to the gym. I wanna try to go 2-3 times a week and it doesn't matter what time a day i'm going. I will follow up on this on the blog and update how my workout and goal is coming. 

Now for something else! I'm going to tell you guys about my piercing experience!
As some of you know, i got a tragus piercing after my math exam.
Right after getting my grade in school, Iben and i took a train to Copenhagen train station. We were a bit early, so we walked down to the shop called Gorlubb Piercing and stood outside it for a couple of minutes before continuing down the road to some shops where we looked at some shoes until 10 minutes before our appointment. Once again we stopped outside the shop, Iben had a cigarette while i put up my hair, and then we went in.

Right when you walk in, you come into this little store with a lot of show windows full of jewelry for piercings. We sat down across from the pay desk at a little table where i got some papers to fill about allergies, health and such stuff. After filling it out i had to pick the jewelry that should go in my ear, i picked a 1.6 mm bar in chrome steel (i think) and which ear to put the piercing in. After that, i met the piercer, Sakko, and we got shown into a small room where the piercing was going to happen. I sat down in the big chair in casually and then he told me where he thought my piercing would look the best. After that he talked me through how it was going to go down. We talked a little bit more before he counted to 3 while i tried to breathe as calmly as i could. We had arranged for him to count down, so i knew when the needle came. When he reached 3, he poke the needle in my ear and yes, it did hurt. Then he told me to keep breathing while he pushed the needle all the way through my ear. This was when i had a bit of difficulty breathing calmly. He did it and put in the jewelry and then started wiping off the blood and then we talked a little bit more. He told me how to take care of my piercing and i also got it in writing so i wouldn't forget. Then i payed and we went to get something to eat.

That is about 4 and a half months ago now. I am really happy that i got it done, i have no regrets!

This is how it looked when i got home: 

It has a little blood around it and i stuck our from my face to allow the ear to swallow if it needed to. 

Now it looks like this: 

It is in my left ear, just to be clear and now it has a silver jewelry with a clear stone in.

I am really satisfied with the piercing and really happy that i got it and i can only recommend Gorlubb piercings! 

My life right now..

I've just come to think a little..My life is actually pretty good right now. And now you are probably thinking "What's so good about it?" Well i'm going to tell you! Even if you didn't think that! ;)

For one thing, I've just ordered my dress for prom and i absolutely love it! I, like every other girl, had some pretty high standards for my dress. It had to be a pretty color that will look good on me, it could not be sent from another country than Denmark because of difficulty with the sizes and stuff and it also had to be a dress i could wear again and i found one.. Obviously, or else i wouldn't have ordered it.

Another thing is that i only have 38 real schooldays left before the exams and then i'm done. Totally done. I still don't know what to do afterwards but i think i will try to find a job and work for a year while i try to figure out what to study. 

This weekend is going to be pretty great. There should be a Fredagscafé but it got cancelled so now Iben and i are going to get some pizza and drink some wine together, maybe watch a movie, we haven't figured out the details yet. Saturday is my dads birthday and therefore i'm going to eat dinner with my family and after that i'm going to Pernille's 20th birthday party. Probably gonna get a bit tipsy!

Next Friday is a day i'm looking forward to too. It's the first time i'm going out to a bar in the city to drink and party and i actually find it kinda weird that i haven't been this excited about something like this before. The other times that i've been invited to a bar or something like that, i've never been excited about it and it always ends up with me not going. I don't know if it has been because of the other people who was invited, or i haven't had the money or i just didn't want to, but this time i am genuinely excited and i am looking forward to it! Also the Fredagscafé has been moved to this day so that is also a plus.

A third thing is that i have great friends. Not that i've just realized that, but i do. My friends are always there for me and even when we have our differences and get into a discussion it always works out again, one way or another. I really love and care for my friends and it is just great knowing, that they feel the same way too. Or at least some of them do.. But still! Family and friends is what is most important in my world. Which is also why i know that i'm gonna miss a hell of a lot of them when they all start their education or if they're going travelling and so on because even though we have those differences, it is what makes us who we are. 

It's late and i'm getting waaaaaay to poetic about this blog post so i'm going to bed now.. G'night! 

I know, i know.. But!

Iv'e been kinda absent from the blog but i don't feel like blogging about anything, just because i have to put out a post. I want some content in my blog, not just random stuff.. But i am blogging now and i must admit, i kinda missed it :)

I finally think my quest for a promdress is complete. I've found a really pretty one and i love the fact that it can be used for other occasions than prom! I love this dress especially in purple! My only problem now is that i still don't have a partner.. Also i don't know if i have the shoes and i have no idea of how to do my hair and make up, but it is going to be okay.. hopefully!
I my class we have a really hard time deciding anything really and with prom and graduation around the corner, we have a lot of planning to do. We need to plan where to eat and how to get to the school for prom  and the transportation is settled, now it's only the place to eat and because people is picky, cheap and full of opinions, we still don't know where to go. Many of the girls vetoed any Chinese or fast food place because of the smell, the boys vetoed Riz Raz because they needed meat and now we're at lost.. I don't get it. Copenhagen is a big city with quite a lot of restaurants, so the fact that we don't know where to go, is kinda ridiculous. For the graduation we already last year booked a truck to drive around in and now, because we are so many students in my class, we need to find a way to get home to everybody without making the trip extremely long.. I think we are at about 10 hours without delays but there will be delays, it can't be avoided.. It's gonna be a looooooooong trip!

Do you guys remember when i had to write SRP?
People started getting the grade a couple of weeks ago and i got more and more anxious when my friends got their grades. And the waiting time wasn't helping either.

I expected the worst of my grade. I told myself that i would be happy if i got 4, but i was expecting 02, so you can imagine my reaction when i was told i got 7! I couldn't stop smiling and when i got into the classroom again, i let out a small scream of happiness and jumped around a bit before calling my mom and texting my dad.
I got my grade this Friday and in the evening there was a party at the school. I got drunk and had a great party! There is probably a few things i can't remember but i had fun!


Next week is vacation time and it is also time for the trip to my summerhouse! It is going to be great and i can't wait! There is just this little thing i need to talk with the others about, but i'll figure it out!

A New Year, A New Start..?

Yet another year where I was going into the new year with a great party.

The thing is just that it was kinda hard on me, the party. A lot of things happened. Things i can't tell anyone, things i don't want to tell at this exact moment and things i really can't remember.. 

So it is kinda hard to tell you guys what happened that night. I can say that the night was emotional at sometimes and i've gotten to know who my real friends are and who i never should have got involved with..

Even though some of the things hurt me, i was glad that they happened. I found out which friends i want in my life and which ones i don't want. Now i just need to find a way to tell them that i can't be friends with them the same way as we were before because of how they acted.. Other friends need a bit adjusting in the friendship because it has gone a bit too far. We seem flirty when we're together and we really shouldn't be flirty in any way. I don't want to lose our friendship, but this can't go on.. 

I always hear everyone say "A new year, a new fresh start" For me, this is not entirely true. Yes it is a new year, but the new start is probably only going to be with my working out. I want to do it more, but it is not a resolution. I don't believe in them. They have never worked for me and probably never will. If you feel the same way, it is probably because you, like everyone else, tells what your resolutions is/are. When you do this and get a reaction like "Oh that sounds like a good idea" or something encouraging, that is enough for your mind. The response and feedback you get from other people is enough to lose that motivation you had and therefore, i have no resolutions.
For a lot of my friends, this year will contain a new start on a university or some other education place to go on with their lives and become whatever they want to. This is not going to happen for me, unless i find out what i want to do with my life during the next couple of months.
I don't know what i want to do with my life.. I'm only 18. And the world is filled with so many options that i just don't know anymore. Well.. I've never known, but now i'm even more confused about it.

I really wanted to write a longer post than this, but i couldn't really manage more than this. I think the flu is coming over me :(

Privacy, Assignments and A Hangover.

Some time ago, when i started my blog, my plan was to have a social outlet. A place where i could speak my mind and don't care what anybody else thought. But now it has turned into a place for me to share what i'm doing, how i'm feeling and to some point, what i'm thinking.
In the beginning, this blog was supposed to be a place where i could write about stuff i didn't feel totally comfortable talking about. Stuff i didn't want to talk to anybody about, but stuff i needed to get off my chest so it didn't fill up my mind all day, everyday. I haven't written about a fight i had with a good friend, i haven't written a lot about my family and i haven't written a lot about my love life - if i even have one! Just because i feel like it's a bit too private and a bit too close to write it a place where basically the whole world can see. These are all things that i talk to my close friends about because sometimes i feel like they are the only ones i can turn to when i'm in the need to talk. And as some or all of you might know, it can be hard to talk about different things with your parents, because you don't want them to know everything in your life, but for me, it can also sometimes be hard to talk to my closest friends about some things. Maybe because i find it embarrassing, maybe because i have so many feelings connected to it that it can be hard just to get close to the subject or maybe because i don't want them to know.. It's not because they absolutely can't know because i haven't got anything against them knowing stuff, it's more because i can't get myself to talk about it a place where people, i don't want to know or don't know, is. If i have to say it, it has to be in private to only a couple of my closest friends..
I feel lucky to have as many friends as i have. And the fact that i have not only one person, but five persons just from my class, i feel like i can talk to about anything really. They don't judge me and they don't think bad of me whenever i express my feelings. I know that these persons wont go out and tell everybody that i don't like a certain person either because they have the same opinion as me or because they know i wouldn't go out and tell on them.
I'm not gonna put any names down because i don't wanna hurt anybody that isn't mentioned. But all in all i probably have about eight or nine close or really close friends and i just want to let them know that i love them and that i'm glad we have the relationship that we have. 

Now to the assignments part. In about a week, i'm starting to write this thing called SRP which stands for Studie Retnings Projekt. If you don't know, it's a HUGE assignment that you have to write to graduate. It is between 15 and 20 written pages and to tell the truth, i am both nervous and stressed out about it. Not only that, i have 4 biology assignments and two math assignments to hand in before i start on the SRP and on the side of that is the normal homework that also has to be done. Stress, stress and more stress...!

When i started this blog post i was at school feeling sick, like i had the entire day before.. Is it possible to have second day hangovers? Because i had a baaaad hangover this Sunday and i felt the same way just not so bad again. I have had a headache and nausea and it only got worse after finding paper/plastic in everything i ate or drank.. Disgusting.

Almost out of school

I'm a senior at my school. That means i only have about 6 months left all in all.

Being a senior means, of course, being the oldest and most awesome! But it also means paying up. Last year i "only" had to pay for the school trip to Sofia. This year i have to pay for the hat you wear when you graduate, the truck we are going to drive in after graduation, the dress for my graduation, my prom dress, shoes, hair, make up, nails, limo ride, dinner at (probably) Hard Rock Cafe and now also (maybe) another school trip! I am poor before i graduate!

Luckily my parents have agreed to pay for the hat and maybe the truck ride too, but the rest of it is stuff i have to pay.

Last year it was about 3500 + allowance, but my parents paid most of it.
This year it will be much more! 500 for the hat, 750 for the truck, 3-400 for the dress, 500-1500 for the prom dress, 2-400 for the shoes, 350 for hair and make up, 4-500 for the nails, 5-700 for the limo ride, i do not know how much the dinner might be but the school trip will end up at about 1500. That is almost 4000 that i alone have to pay.. Good thing i get student grant.. Maybe i should get a job..?

The thing is, these last couple of years had been a real joy and i might have made some friendships that will last for a very long time, also after we are done in school. There are boys and girls in my class that i hope will stay my friends even after we have started our educations on universities and stuff like that. I am looking forward to some crazy parties and nights out. 

It's kinda sad to know it's all going to end this summer. All the parties at the school, all the fun times i've had at and after school and even though it wasn't the school that made those moments, but the people i was with, tall the memories are connected to the school and this summer, i will probably never come back to the school again..

I don't know what the point of this blog post is, but i just came to think about it and felt like writing about it.

One last thing - I am not a vary patient person. That is something i have come to know about myself. A have ordered something from England last week and i usually takes about 3-4 work days before it comes here, but it's been a week and i haven't seen anything. I really wanted it last Thursday, but the one package will probably first come tomorrow and the other one will probably first be here Thursday.. I want it now! :(

Vacation!..

This week has been really easy. Kinda like a mini vacation because i was only in school for two days :D
It's really just something you need once in a while to reload your batteries, sleep in and relax all day long. 
Today i haven't really been doing anything. Tomorrow i am going to Stenløse to buy the food we need on Friday where i am throwing a Sex and the City night for my girls. We are going to watch the movies, clean out in my closet, eat ourselves fat in food, candy and chips :D

Yesterday i found out where i'm going this summer and i can't wait!
We won two weeks in an apartment in the middle of Barcelona! We are going to live right on the Rambla and it's gonna be so awesome!!
I'm gonna pack as little as possible because shopping is probably something i am going to do a whole lot of! 
It's gonna be AWESOME! And it is right after i get home from Langeland that i'm going to Spain to tan my skin on the lovely beach!

That was a whole lot of exclamation points..

My class was supposed to go on another school trip to either Berlin, Riga or Amsterdam but sadly that is probably not going to happen because along the planning, there was a misunderstanding about where the money came from and how much we were going to pay and now we aren't going :(
We had an anonymous vote in class if we wanted to go, even though we had to pay max 1500 kr. If anyone said no, we weren't going, so that's it..
Now there is some of my classmates who absolutely want to go and they are trying to plan a trip without teachers and stuff and i think it could be great, i just don't get why trying to do something with the entire class when some of our classmates can't go because they can't afford it and i see the problem when they say that they get cut off just because they can't afford to go. I want to go, but i don't want to cut off some of my friends because they can't come.. It also depends on who is coming and so on..

The last thing i want to talk about, is the vacation i'm trying to plan with a bunch of my friends. We are trying to go to my summerhouse for free in the nearest vacation but with about 10 people, it's not easy to work out. There are still a couple of things we need to find out, like when we are going and who is coming and so on but it could be really, really fun and cozy to go over there for a week to relax with some friends and just have fun :)
Problem is that we wanted to go in week 7, but my parents had made a plan to go that week to clean the entire house and that is not anything i'm reliving for the 3. or 4. time. All the adults that come gets totally stressed and they are noisy and we have to go look after all the things that could be missing in the house. I'm not interested in that! Now we are talking about going in the Easter holiday and that might be a possibility if i can get my parents to talk to the firm that rents the house, so we can get it for free and not for 7.035 kr a week. I am really putting a lot of effort into this trip, because it is my parents that owns a part of the house and it could just be really fun and cozy and i really want to go! 

Things i have done and things i'm looking forward to

These last couple of weeks have been a mixture of all kinds of goods and bads and i wanna tell you about some of the things I've done and some of the things i'm looking forward to :)

The first thing is, i moved room!
This may not come as a surprise to some of you, but i moved into my sisters old room.
We started painting about 2 weeks ago and after 3 days, my room was totally moved! If it were up to me, it would probably have been going slower, but my parents were kinda in a rush because they wanted to move my little sister's room into my old room for a surprise.  
I love it! It has a bigger closet, new bed, pretty furniture and less space for me to mess up ;)

The next thing is, that one of my good friends held a birthday party where all the people from Langeland were invited. Of course not everyone could come, but the ones that showed up was ready to have a wild night and some of us had. I really enjoyed being with most of them and i was one of the people who had a great and wild night! I had planned to go home with one of the guys and we ended up being home at 5:30 in the morning! That was something i hadn't planned :D

The day before, i had been to a party at my gymnasium where Jokeren came and played. It was really awesome!

The weekend after, i was at a party with my cousins. Those parties always ends up with me being really drunk and getting sick, but this time was different :) I had to get up early the next morning so i chose to go home early and that resulted in not being able to drink as much :)

If i was thinking about doing this post chronologically, i would have put the thing about my room here because that is when it happened, in the vacation we had. At Thursday in the vacation i went home to Simon, the same guy i went home with after the party, to watch a movie, talk, anything really :)

Then we are up to this last weekend where i went to a dildo home party at Pernille's house and to another birthday/Langelands party at Schmidt's. The dildo party was so funny, but at the same time very exciting. I didn't buy anything, it was all very expensive and when you're saving for a new phone, you don't have 300-500 kr. to buy sex toys and stuff like that. I really didn't expect that we all would sit and listen carefully because it is a bit wierd having a woman come talk about such things and also we had been drinking quite a lot before she came, so i expected that i at least would be less serious but i really learned stuff and had fun :D
Now on to the birthday/Langelands party. Oh boy where to begin? We came to eat first - 5 course meal, tasted really good! Then my drinking began and all of a sudden i was really drunk. Like really, really drunk! There was some whine, tequila shots, champagne.. I don't know. I remember pretty much the entire night, like when i took off half of my dress so that we could make body tequila and while i was laying there in my bra and my dress hanging at my hips, pictures were taken. And not just one or to, but about 20. FUN! :D
This was also the nigh where you put your watches one hour back so all of a sudden, when you think it was 4, it was only 3 in the morning. I got home at 4:30 and when i woke up the next morning, i had one of the worst hangovers ever! But i didn't care, because with the memories from the night before, it was worth it! :D

Now on to the things i'm looking forward to!
Tomorrow i have a day off and i should probably use it to do something like my danish paper or cleaning the aquarium and maybe i will use some of the day on those things, but i am also going home to Simon and that is always a good thing and a thing i'm looking forward to :i

One of my best girlfriends are throwing a birthday party this Saturday and i am not ready at all, but i will be and i am looking forward to it!

I think that was all for now, but i'm not going to write another post if i forgot anything, so i apologize in advance if you feel like i have forgotten anything :) 

What have I been up to?

It's that day again. Sunday. The las day of the week, so I thought: "Hey! let's blog!" So I am gonna tell you what I've done this week while eating rhubarb cake with ice cream and watching Denmark beating Germany's ass in football :D

This monday was an exam day. Written math.. That is probably going to end in 00-02 if I am lucky..

Then after the exam, I had friends over for a dip in the pool, food and some movies :D

I had a fun and cozy time and I hope all of them did too :D The only one that stayed and slept was Mette and we chose to watch another movie when the others were gone. We saw 21 Jump Street - Great movie! 

Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday was more or less relaxing days where nothing really was done. Lazy me :P

Friday was a work day. I had planned to do a lot of things before, but all I did was shower, really.. When I got picked up from work I was told that y dad and my sister had had a fight about something totally stupid and it was while we had company. Dad was droven off to the airport to pick up my grandparents and some of their friends. My sister had walked out of the house and we weren't shure where she had gone to. My littlesister was alone with our guests because my mom needed to pick me up. The incident was not mentioned again and the night became quite good. 

Saturday - another work day, but my 4th last of them! After a long day, my sister picked me up and we talked about if the guests for this night had arrived. They had and we were to eat in the kitchen. We talked while eating and I found out that my sister and father had made up and they were going to look at apartments at Sunday. Durring that evening the signal for both TV and WIFI went and later on the water also went out. I had electricity all night tho! 

Sunday was my parents and sister in Copenhagen to look at apartments for my sister and I decided to make a spa day. I layed facial masks, showered, hair mask, body scrub, shaved my legs, filed my feet, and applied moisturizer all over. Seriously, I spent an hour and 15 mins in the bathroom and I loved it! :D Now I'm just chillin' in my bed watching the international match and hoping that we proceed to the next round :D