School trip!

Okay, you guys are probably wondering why i'm still awake..

I am too excited for the school trip i'm going on! We are going to Sofia, Bulgaria for 5 days! We are leaving monday early morning at like 7 o'clock so we have to be at the airport at 5 in the freaking morning! :O

The worst thing is that I have to go to work tomorrow and i am going to be tired because i can't sleep, because i am too excited!

And you guys are probably thinking now: "Oh, she is going to Sunny Beach to party all night!" No, this is a school trip. I won't say that we aren't going to drink, because we are, but we are not going partying. We could get sent home for that.

I have packed almost everything. The only things i need is my compact, my birthcontrol pills, my ipod, which is charging, my cellphone, which is charging and someting i can rinse or clear my nails with - Strange habbit! o_0

I will try to see if i can go to sleep now, so goodnight. I will try to find out if i can blog on my trip so this will turn into a holliday diary of some kind :)

Say whaaaaat??

Okay this is gonna be really random and awesome!

Yesterday there was a raveparty at my school and all I have left are the memories, because we forgot to take pictures and that just sucked! We had a really awsome party and all I have left is a neon stick that I am actually playing with right now!

Sometimes I feel like I need to post some videos on my youtube channel! Like a vlog or something to get started but I don't know that the subject should be! I could do beauty videos, I could do random vlogs, I could sing or paint but I really don't know! SOMEBODY HELP ME!!

Right now, I am really poor in my mind. I have like 47 kr. on my account and I owe 1000 kr. to my other account because I chose to lend some. Stupid idea.. I have to pay it all back at some point but obviously not right now..

I feel.. chased by a couple on guys at the time and it's actually a nice feeling. I haven't had that happen to me before. So yearh RANDOM!

I'm gonna go watch me some Big Bang Theory and look forward to monday when I get to know who A is on Pretty little Liars.

I wanna make a promise, right here, right now! I wanna make a blog entry at least once every to weeks. There! I said it! Now it has to be done! :)

Crush

So today, I wanna talk a little about crushes..
I'm 17 years old, I've had a share of the cute-boy-crushes.
My problem seems to be that when ever I find a cute boy and tries to charm my way into their hearts, it always ends up with them being happy and me being alone..

I won't lie. I have high expectations when it comes to my future boyfriend, but I think that I'm allowed to. I know every girl has high hopes and expectations, but are we just supposed to settle with one that is okay, when we could get someone better??

While being in High School, as I am right now, I have had two crushes. That is two crushes in the 1.5 years I've been going to this school. The first one, was a boy named Thomas*. It all started when he send me a friend request on Facebook and then we started texting back and forwards. At the High School dances, he kept his distance, I was always the one to approach him and I'm not that kind of girl. Even though I tried talking with him and dancing with him, he just seemed a little too shy. I am also shy so it was hard for me to take all the steps towards him, when he didn't take one towards me. After some time, he completely stopped answering me on Facebook and he didn't answer the texts I send him either. I didn't really know what I had done wrong, so I asked one of our mutual friends to talk to him and ask him if there was anything since he didn't answer me. I started ti ignore him, just like he ignored me because I got mad that he would be such an ass. My friend told me that it wasn't because he didn't like me. He thought that I was a nice girl and he did want something with me, but he wished that I would take the first step. This is where I got really annoyed. I hadn't done anything but taking the first step, he just didn't get it! Then a couple of dances ago, he pushed me. It probably wasn't on purpose, but he didn't turn around to say he was sorry, he just kept going. I stopped all contact with him at that point. Now he is referred to as 'The Skank' whenever we see or talk about him. Oh! And by the way, he is fooling around with another girl now.. Well, fuck you then!

The second was a boy called Kenneth*. We got to talk when we and another group of young people took a trip to Turkey. We became really good friends and I could already there feel that this could be something more. In Turkey, I got his number, but wasn't planing to use it at all when we got home. That was a mistake. After the trip, we started texting and planing all kinds of stuff, but then he left for a boarding school on the other side of the country. It didn't really bother me, because we continued to text back and forwards and it got more and more intimate. We wound send pictures and stuff like that. After a month we met at a festival in the town we live in. We hung out the whole night and when we had to say goodbye, that was the first time I really wanted to kiss him, but I didn't. I regret that now. After that, we texted for about 4 month, before seeing each other again at one of the High School dances. We were together the whole night. I was trying to find my friends, because I knew they were looking for me, and he walked with me to find them. It was all very cute and all my friends asked me if there were a small spark between us. I really wished for it, but I wasn't sure. The night ended up with that his father came and picked us up and drove us home. After that we went back to writing a bit, but suddenly it stopped too! I was reliving it all over again. But this time, I couldn't do anything about it. About a month ago was the time for when we stopped writing or texting. I stopped it, because of a couple of pictures on Facebook where he was kissing another girl. Yep, he has a girlfriend now and I am all alone.. FML.

Maybe I'm just doomed to be alone..? I know that there is a couple at school who has a but of a crush on me, but I don't like them... At all!..

This blog was just for expressing my feelings. I don't know why I can't have a cute and hot boyfriend, but it is apparently not going to be like that for me.. Yet.


* The names have been changed to spare myself of the embarrassment.

It's a sad day today..

So, I woke up this morning thinking: "Today is going to be a good day!" 
I could not have been more wrong.


It wasn't because of the subjects, they were kinda okay, I mean I survived.. Didn't I?
It was more the fact that 2 of the boys in my class were getting to know if they could stay in school or if they were going to be expelled.. 


They found out that they weren't getting to know before the end of school. My classmates stayed, just as I did to hear what would happen. We got through chemistry and German but when we got to biologi, we all got anxious on their behalf and they went down to the office, one at the time when the time had come. 


The first one of the boys got back quite quickly and closed the door. He asked if everybody was in the classroom, because he wanted to tell us all something. He stood there, in front of the class and smiled a bit, like he always does and then he said: "I want you to know, that you guys are the greatest class I've ever been in and I really care about all of you, but we wont get to see each other again.. I got expelled."
Everybody got all sad and looked at him. Some even asked if he were joking, but he wasn't..


Then the other boy got back and he just shook his head, saying "It just didn't work". Many of the girls begun to either cry or just shed a tear.. It was just really sad :(


We didn't even get a reason.. I do not like the faculty at my school any more! 


Also, there is EM in TV and Denmark just lost their match because of some shitty referees. That is just sad that they didn't dare to judge the match the correct way because of the freaking audience.. SHIT!


This was just a sad and shitty day all in all!! 

My only high point of today was when i watched the new episode of Pretty Little Liars!

SHIT SHIT SHIT.. Sorry, I just need to get this out there..

I Hate Mondays

Oh my god, i hate today!


Firts of all, it's Monday. Second of all I had to be in school for 7 and a half hours. Third of all I was at practice and I has asthma. My asthma was really acting up and now i've got blisters on 3 out of 5 fingers on my right hand.


My school was filled with crap!
I was really tired because I was an idiot and went to sleep at 3 a.m, just because i'm stupid and when I waked up, I really felt like ditching because of the subjects I was giong to have.
Biologi
Chemistry
Math
and Phisycs..
I didn't, but I wanted to!


I mean could it be more shitty!?

The two positive things of the day, was my friends and the fact that I opened a twitter account. 


So this day hasn't been the best day. I think that i'm gonna go to bed now..


Good night for now <3